Love is such a weird thing.
Right now I love my man passionately, and he loves me too. If I were to loose him I don't know what I would do. Live in hell for a while. Kill whats left of my liver.

Sometimes I think back on the people I thought I could not live without in the past. My first husband was one. I thought he was the cats meow. When he left me, I thought I would die of grief. I even had my suicide all planned out. Today I think back on him, and although I have no hate, I don't see what the big deal was. He was a short skinny little balding dude. Then my second husband, I got so use to having him that I didn't think I would make it when he ended it. But I got over it pretty fast, and today I look back on that as the biggest mistake of my life. Then the guys I have dated, omg, how awesome some of them were while I was with them, today it's like - - What the fuck was I thinking! Love can be blind, and sometimes stupid. 

Today I am madly in love again. He is my everything. I hope that it lasts this time. I am going to give my all to see that it does. I can not imagine looking back on him and thinking "Why?" No way, not him, not ever.

What is the deal with the rating system. The system that allows you to view explicit blogs. I went to change my permissions so I could check out the explicit blogs, and it wanted me to print out something, sign it and snail-mail it in. WTF? I am not going through all that crap. I just won't be seeing those blogs. What a pain in the ass.